Yeah...I'm over it.

So I told someone I'd find the video's they made for my brother. God I fucking miss him so much. ->[link] [link] [link] and this one is a lyric video but the person did know my brother well, and they do mention him. [link]

I hope that that answered your question Now please, just leave me alone.

Not a day goes by, that I don't think of him, that I don't miss him. I've learned to cope with my situation, but I'll always miss him. Until we meet again, my angel (:

Promise that we'll stay for the sunset, and when the moon shines through the darkness we can find the path that leads us home, and on the way you'll...maybe sing me a song, promise that you always will be there, hold my hand if ever I'm real scared, help me stand up tall, if I call down, make me laugh away all my bluest days, how could you promise that you always would be there? Why'd you have to go away somewhere? every morning into every night do you watch over me like the sun in the sky am I all alone or standing in your light I wish that I could, maybe, sing you a song....tonight...you promised that we'd stay for the sunset..."

I will always hate this time, it has brought so much pain, so much mourning. I cannot find myself to smile during that minute, all the world stops. It seems as if it's never-ending pain for me. Three eleven seems to come an hour later, and the smiles continue, it's almost automatic, how horrible it can be. The world may never know this story, but I will make sure all my friends do.

If you don't understand, Three Ten A.M was the time when the so called "Doctors"(bah, pathetic) pronounced my brother dead.

I don't like this, not one bit. Too Much has happened, I'm about to lose it. I can't stand this, all these problems. I want it all to go back, the way it was before. Without all the doctor visits, without the hospital runs. I want to see, I want to walk. I'm seriously scared guys. I am. This shouldn't happen. I don't want Surgery, I don't want a CAT scan. I don't want this!.